Friday, December 24
50 more minutes to CHRISTMAS. yeah! hehes. i want everything in my wish list. [hint hint!] ((: hmms. okayys. shall let you people know. so that you can get for me. yeas? hahas.
- a new phone. [ ]
- a new make up kit [*]
- billabong wallet [*]
- get tan [*]
- lose weight
- medicure [ ]
- roxy bikini [ ]
- sylvester soft toy [*]
- the special someone [ ]
uh-huh. get me those w/o the * in the [ ]. hahas. okayys. gotta go. anyways, i love 23 dec 2004. it's the best night i had. whoas. thanks sh, erica, jon, terence, andrew and alton. muacks. love you guys for the wonderful night, man.
Wednesday, December 22
Hey you* look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think i'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that I'm all right
and you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
[perfect by simple plan]
*supposed to be dad.
-you know who you're and i know you're reading this.
'i dont hate you. i've lots of thoughts in my mind now. i told you i'll talk to you when i think the time is right.. i will.. soon. sorry.' ---> quoted from you
i've lots of whys in my mind now. you've lots of thoughts in mind now. what's it gotta do with me? i didn't cause that, did i? why? what did i do? you said you'll talk to me when the time is right. when's the right time? what's the right time? hmms. what am i to you? talk to me when you're happy. ignore me when you're angry. do you know how i feel? i doubt so. or you won't do that to me. nvms. guess i just dont mean anything to you. it's okayys. i won't bother you anymore. not at all. take care.
love you. love my beloved darlings.
Thursday, December 16
dancedancedancedancedancedance
oh yeah, baby. shake ya body. woahs! back from camp. still very high and hyper. i wanna dance! never really felt so passionate aout dancing before. hahas. we had lots of fun. dance, dance, dance & dance non-stop. the sparkc activities are fun. esp the rock-climbing. although my arms are aching like hell, still finds it challenging. yepps. hmms. what i really love and enjoyed the most, it's the dancing and campfire. the feeling was just so right. we were all so high. danced to the max, to the best. and i could see all of us were smiling so widely. [[wink!]] if i'm not wrong, we did the finale dance about 5 or 6 times? the music went on, we continued. none of us stopped. we didnt feel tired, i bet, at that point of time. lols. that's how much dancers love dancing. also, i know how much i love dancing. it's something so hard to describe. but i love dancing so so so much. yeah! then, we had camp fire. did lots of stupid stuffs with ivy, debrah, jocelyn, jing yu and gang. all the silliest and stupidest steps and movements. hahas. so funny. we were too crazy. cant help it. anyways, my friends rock my life. rites, babes? we'll always be together! say YEAH! say woo la la, say woo! c'mon, c'mon! lols. i'm hyper again. oops. tatas. ::: poof! :::
i love you. i love dancing. i love my beloved darlings, and you know who you all are.
Friday, December 10
sigh. what did i do wrong again? this's not the first thing you're ignoring me le. can you at least open your golden mouth and tell me what's wrong this time? can you at least tell me? if i did something wrong, i'm sorry, okayys?
[[i miss you,boy]]
Thursday, December 9
gosh! i dont believe it, man. paul ang is attached again, to another girl older than him. wth! can tell me living on her is gigallowism when i said he's a pimp. and when i asked him isnt that worst. you wont believe his answer. he dare to say that he likes it. what on earth are guys doing now? is living on girls a proud thing? i dont think so. surely not a thing to be happy about. paul, you're making guys out there low-class, you know. yikes. cant stand it. i despise these kinda guys. must you spoil guys' image? like i havent got a bad enough image of them, uh. rather disappointed. making his gf pay for his dinner. just a meal le, boy. what has the world become, man?! sigh. quite saddening to hear this, rites? dont understand why.
Tuesday, December 7
SYLVESTER!
hehes. i'm nuts over him. gosh. andrew thinks i'm crazy. yea, for now. he's cute, okayys. i shall stop saying how cute he is and how much he rocks. kekes. :))) hmms. though singapore idol is taufik, i'm still gonna support sly! yeah! rock on, boy. [[wink!]]
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okayys. i'm here to update a lil of my holis. cuz people have been tagging and complaining that my blog has spider webs. but i dont see any though. just lack of updates. hahas. let's see. life's good, i supposed. have been kinda gd girl. doing my work more than usual. lols. yupps. hanging our with char, yee loo, xuan wei, shu yue and yan leng lesser and lesser. so sad. but sixsy 6 still rocks! yea, babes? [[smiles]] went to watch shutter with and. it's good. but too scary for me. hehes. was screamng half the time. and almost went deaf. so sorry, dude. oops. then we went town to take neo prints. had a great time with and. :))) yepps. hmms. went k-box yesterday. the room is pathetic. so small. blegh. prefer tampines's. a bigger room and there's more cute guys. lols. sixsy 6 all agree! [[big grin]] we sang from 11plus to 2plus. had a fun time. lols.
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boy. i miss you. missing you lots. missing you more than ever. i know you're living better now. i know i've promised you that i'll move on and not cry anymore. but, i'm still on the same spot, waiting for you to be back. waiting for you to come back and pick me up. perharps it's impossible. but i rather believe in that. boy, i'm waiting for you. right here. dear, i love you. so much.
